i dont know if i can do this anymore.. i think this is a little revieling.. its like hey look at my life.. and then people read it that you dont want to read it...! so im not going to be updating as much.. but i will update when i have some exciting news.. cuz rite now i dont like my life!!

hey guys. idk what i have been doing really... school has been so boring... yesterday i came to school and then went to homeroom.. omgsh mrs. maier was flipping out and she like lost the answer sheets and she was all stressed i was jstu sitting there laughing b-c she was about to have a heart attack and mrs. browning came in to ask her something and ,rs. maier just went off on her b-c she was so idk lol....but yea... then we went to all of our classes but all we do is go outside... its pretty lame.. lol and then i went home with katie... her mom picked us up from school and we went to downtown frnakling and got ice-cream and then went back to her house... we didnt have n e thing to do so we made her grandma a cake cuz her b-day is coming up... but yea so then my parents came to pick me up and then katies parents and mine started talking and then we didnt leave for like another hour and 1/2... lol... but yea then whenever we got home i wasnt hungry at all so i didnt eat dinner.. and then all of a sudden i felt like i was going to puke.. it was gross so then my mom got onto me about how im not "fat" enuogh to go w/o eating a meal... lol i think she thought i was belimic.. puking up all the food i had in me... lol so then she made me soup and i wouldnt eat it cuz the noodles tasted like rubber and the crackers she gave me tasted stale.. so i just went to bed... ugh.. lol... so then yea i woke up and still didnt feel good but i had to go to school for TCAPs... so i did and got through them and then went to some of computer.. and then i got to come home.. so then i slept from 11-3:30... lol i guess i was really tired... and now i am still feeling sick... which completely sucks... but yea... i am sooo mad.. b-c tomorrow i have to go to an allergist adn get like 12 holes in my arm and then they shove all this crap in there and then which ever one gets inflamed or swelled.. thats wut i am allergic to... SOUNDS LIKE FUN!!! yay.. lol... i think iam gonna go call logan to see how he is... u prolly dont know him but o well. o wait i cant b-c i forgot i have like no voice... lol so i guess ill just wait for him to get on.. he got in a car wreck... he lef tme a voicmail... but i think he said he was ok.. so thats good.. well n e ways.. im stil gonna go lay down cuz im really tired... love you!! love degraff

o jeez.. i knew it was too good to be true. adds on to my nice life.. o well God has better plans for me than i can ever imagine and thats why im not all that sad b-c i know everything happens for a reason and whether taht reason be good or bad it will all work out for the good in the end! I had the time of my life tonite.. wont write it on here thought b-c some people might get alil jealuos.. lol love always, mandy ((nicole))

hey guys, sorry i havent written in so long! ahh ive been so busy... well yea friday was the play! it was soo much funn! mary was soo sweet... we were giong to rachel s. party afterwards and she said she brought flowers for rachel for her b-day but she lied she had rachels gift in the car and the flowers were for me! i was like aww i love you... i love her soo much she is such a sweetheart! but yea so the play went pretty good actually.. i dont think we messed up at all a few studders here and there and that was about it.. so yea then we went to rachels party that was OK... i mean i had just broken up with brad o yea... forgot to mention that whole deal long sotry short he spread a rumor around the whole school on firday taht i let my best guy friend (( scott b)) go down my pants... yea so i broke up with him and yea so it kinda hurt me at rachels party to see all these couples that seem like u could never break them apart... like they were meant to be... but thats really never happened to me... i always have these on and off boyfriends who treat me like shiz and i know i seserve better.. (( to be continnuued later on down here)) so then me mary, katie h, and rachael m, went and spent the night at marys house after trying to get ice cream at every restreant .. we were sooo desperate that we went to food lion.. gross i know lol... but yea... so then the next night me and mary went to katie higgs' house! and we saw this guy on a bike and i shouted hey gorgeous turned out to be this guy that i used to go to church with so we hung out all weekend and omgsh love him now! ahh yea way over brad... but anwway... u dont need to know my personal life so i wont write about when me and him hung out haha ***wink wink** lol.... alrighty well im out ill write later! love always, nicole richie ((mandy))

yea ill write later about how a rapist almost ubducted me and chelsea... scary i know sorry to keep u in suspence ask me tomorrow and ill tell u

I never get to hang out with pariis n e more.. i miss her soo mucha nd we had this huge weekend planned and we didnt even see each other :'( tears.. BUt i stilll LOVE her to DEATH and i wanted her to know that i will love her no matter what even tho she only made alternates which really wasnt fair AT ALL b-c sierra faith and shelby swayze made it over her which really pissed me off... urgh..but w.e urgh were gonna have funn with the play next friday and everything abckstage muhahah! yes babe i love and nothing is gonna change for us jsut b-c of this gay cheer deal.... love ya so mucha nd i know ull always be there for me when i need u and i know urll always be ther for me too.. thanx for being loyal babes... love you pariis love nicole..*

omgsh dont u love the title? lol... its the start to one of my sisters songs from when she recorded when she was 16... it was on her first album.. aww soo cute! well anyways im sooo srry i havent updated in like forever! i have been sooooo busy! ive just go the chance and i am about to go to sleep b-c its a big day back to school tomorrow! after the longest week ever! jeez... well yea monday tuesday wedsay weer cheerleading clinic and omgsh i was soo scared i wasnt gonna make it... well idk.. then thursday i had cheers for 1 1/2 and i was doing my standing tuck on the mat b-c i am close to getting it... but then it got to friday and iw as soo sore from all that tumbling and shiz but then i was soo sore and i got really nervous just b-c it was highschool and everything.. and so i had like the worst tryout ever! i didnt think i made it.. but then idk we got there friday night and we waited til 9 for the lsit to be put up... jeez an hour late.. and i saw i made jv? i was like well i didnt put that down but w.e b-c was happy b-c no freshy's made varsity.. seems a bit fishy to me ?? but yea its going to be pretty funn.. but im soo mad... mary didnt make it and im gonna miss her soo much i thought we were going to be on the same squad but that really upset me... urghness... o well i guess we'll just hang out, out of school and maybe do dance team together if i can with cheers and jv football cheer and everything.. but i still loveh r to death and i think she is the best cheerleader.. but yea so the freshy's and friends that are on my squad as is follows haha... chelsea c, rachel s, mary-glenn, and meg.. i think thats it..? but then theres some other people...but yea so sat. i went to cheers in the morning for 2 and 1/2 hours and tumbled and was practicing my standing tuck. on the floor BY MYSELF! ahh but i didnt land one b-c i was soo tired i had been tumbling for 2 hours and i was sore from all the other days.. but o wel when thurs. comes ill be doing it again my myself. eek! so after that i was to opri mills and shopped around for my b-day which is in idk some days soon.. lol.. and yea so then sat. night i got home form babysitting and me and chelsea went to ponchos with her family o jeez that was a blast! and tehn we camae home watched sillyville and went to sleep... so then yea we woke up layed around made pankcakes and goofed off then we went to the mall and putsed around for like 5 hours there.. and then we went to platos closet and came home and then i ate dinner jumped on the trampoline went to wedys to hang out with all the friend workers ((co workers)) and then came home and worked on a project for teen living.. so yea the "past" has been pretty enjpyable i guess u could say! idk i just cant wait for highschool i think all around things wil get betetr for me... not so much other people but im ready to get out of that gay lil neener neener wimpy immature school of ours and move onto something more maturified... alrighty well thats al for now.. ill write later.. love always, nicole richie ((mandy))

well today was funn and weird.. i was really tired just to be back in the flow of thigns with getting up early and all that crap and getting all cute b-c ive been lounging and stuff... but yea. soo y idk today was sad me and brad got in a fight b-c he said i never talk to him and realyl i try n stat a convo and he says yea or ok and walks and talks to his crew so im like w.e. so ill be like it'll be fine but again i feel out down and treated like shiz when i deserve better..... WAY better.. so idk i am about to go text him he is really sorry and doesnt wanna lose me and crap so idk ill go let my feelings out and explain to him... but dont worry if thigns dont change idk how long we'll be together but right now i really like him even though hes doing this.. but i hope things will change... so yea.. today i "felt free" idk i felt like i could be myself around everyone idk maybe i was just happy to be back to school.. maybe not? idk maybe im just acting weird.. cahnging finding myself w.e idk .... maybe this will be continued but unril then im out b-c i think my eye is screwing up.. its like gross.. lol... goodnight love you guys forever.... from the heart, mandy degraff

lol isnt that title sexy?? alrighty well idk where i left off.. i think it was from whenver i went shopping jeez i really dont update at all sorry.. this might get more interesting once we get back to school which is tomorrow unfortunately... :'( !! but yea so it was friday and i had tog et up early and babysit this lil girl like WAY YOUNG that wouldnt even crawl yet and omgsh that was like hell--oo.... b-c she cried for like an hour straight b-c she was teething.. but then i got home and found out i had to babysit for 2 hours later that night so i did that and hung out with the lil boy i babysat and tony h. lil sis... lol! so n e ways.. yea then i got home and i called chelsea and i went over there... that was a blast we played mario... and all that funn stuff... we playes doccer on saturday and just hung ouit made a huge breakfast that took 3 hours to cook which looked really gross so i only ate well 5 peices of bacon hehe.. and then all her donuts! but yea so then i went home and i dont remember wut i did! but then last night i missed my sis alot b-c i never see her n e more b-c she is always working so i called her at 1:00 a.m and she had her fone and i said happy easter and asked her when she waws cmoing home b-c she was suposed to get off at one but something happened and she was like ill explain when iget home and i was like freaked out but i told her to wake me up and talk to me when she got home but she was too tired... so idk we just went to sleep and woke up.. and went to church then came home and found easter baskets lol! and then we went to our friends house ate and played games then we came home and me and my sis and her friend went to wendys to get their hours and then we got drinks and just hung out there and talked to her co-workers lol.. and they are all sooo sweet! i wanna work so bad i mean u get paid there and all they do is sit around and cook food and hang out when their not working... so i mean its actually pretty funn.. but i guess all around my spring break wasnt all that good... i only got to see brad once and i miss him.. but i get to see him tomorrow so i am excited... but anytways i am gonna go get ready for bed! love yall... and if i left u hanging about why my sis got home 2 hours late.. like at 3 in the morning ask me and i might tell u its sooo freaking scary!! ahh love always, nicole